It's Official

Well It is official!  I am most certainly pregnant.  The Dr appointment yesterday went really well.  I am estimated at 6 weeks 7 days today(so a few days off from what we thought) and due around the end of October.  She went to do my exam and said you are most certainly pregnant.  Just hearing those words made my heart leap for joy!  I am beyond excited to have it confirmed.  Though we knew it it's still pretty amazing.  We won't have any ultrasounds or anything like that on a regular basis unless there is some type of medical reason too since I declined the anatomy scan.  So we will have one at 20 weeks otherwise we will just listen to the heartbeat every appointment.  To be quite honest I'm actually 100% okay with that.  So many people would want the extra ultrasounds even pay for them and I completely understand but being that already this pregnancy is seeming so much more normal then it was with Ezekiel (aka no bleeding, or spotting) I want to be treated "normal".

Well I promised I'd post so there you are.  We will be having another little munchkin by the end of the year. 

A noticeable bump

I've talked a little bit in the past on how I was on a journey not only to get pregnant but also in the last year to get healthy, fit and try to loose as much weight as possible.  Below the first picture is a picture of me in March of 216 Followed by a picture of me just last month at the beginning of February.

So why on earth am I showing you this?  Well because that picture right there above this text I took just a couple weeks ago.  I have since lost even a few more inches of fat and toned up even more.  This morning I weighed myself(exactly the same as a few weeks ago since I found out I was pregnant)  Just one notable difference:

Baby has deemed that I should have a baby bump early.  I had to laugh when I put on my gym clothes this morning and saw that I had a very noticeable bloat bump(cause let us be real it is definitely not a baby right now).  But It really is interesting to me that I have gained absolutely nothing yet there is an obvious change in my body.  And no readers I will assure you I was most certainly not sticking it out on purpose.  I always heard you started showing earlier the more kids you have I just didn't think that at 7 weeks(technically 7 weeks tomorrow) I would have a very round front.  I know anyone looking at me would think its just flab that has to go but it makes me smile.  Soon that flab will be moving with the kicks and turns of a little boy or girl.

I really am leaning towards not finding out the sex and letting it be a surprise.  I am loving the idea more and more as the days go on.  Of course you can not fault me if I change my mind in the future.  Well that's really all for now just thought it was worth the share. 

Getting Real

In just a few days I will be heading to the Drs office for our first appointment!  I'm so incredibly excited.  It's becoming real to me.  Today I plan to go to the craft store pick out some yarn and begin a gender neutral baby blanket.  I made one for Ezekiel and every child we have I plan on making them their very own.  The more I think about it the more I really feel like I will be waiting and not find out the gender so I want to pick something that really can fit either a girl or a boy...so probably yellows greens ect; 

Overall I feel good.  I get waves of nausea and exhaustion but overall I feel good.  I found if I push past and exercise I get a little burst of energy which is nice.  I'm trying to stick with that as much as I can. 

I'll definitely post on Friday after my appointment. 

In One Week

In just one week I will have my first appointment with the midwives.  I came to the realization yesterday that I have absolutely no idea what to expect.  In the past I was given special treatment so to speak since I was with the fertility specialists but this time I have no idea.  Will I get an ultrasound?  Will I get to hear the heartbeat?  Last time with Ezekiel due to all the complications with the hemorrhage by 8 weeks I had already had 9 ultrasounds I believe it was.  I decided to call and find out.  If there really isn't anything going on is it worth Isaac and Ezekiel coming for an hour.  I found out that there is not an ultrasound.  They explained they plan on doing that at the second visit since they don't have vaginal ultrasound machines and at 7 weeks that is normally too early to see anything.  They offered to write me a script to get one done early but I would have to pay out of pocket for it.    I told them that is okay since I  now realized that this is the norm.  She told me they have a bedside ultrasound machine so that she will gladly try to see something but that at only 7 weeks I can't expect anything to happen or be seen.  It's worth trying I suppose we will see how I feel the day of.

I'm not really having any pregnancy symptoms so to speak beyond getting very tired.  But nothing a nap or some coffee can't help with.  Overall things are seeming good I'm excited for next week.  That is about all I have left to post on. 

Yesterday we skyped with Isaac's parents and told them the news.  Or rather we had Ezekiel tell them while wearing this outfit:

I have to admit I was a little nervous to tell them.  Since I'm not having any signs of pregnancy yet I began to think the: am I really pregnant?  Which of course I knew I was/am.  I have one more test left so I decided on a whim to just take it to make myself feel better about telling them:  

I then had to laugh at my own foolishness.  I was excited though to see those two really dark lines since that means that my hcg levels are definitely going up. 

I've already begun debating on if I am going to want to know the sex of this baby or not.  I honestly think I might want to be surprised.  I know we have an incredibly long time to wait before that comes but I really think it might make things even more exciting.  As of right now unless God decides to heal me and give us a child naturally I don't know that I will ever be pregnant again.  This makes me like the idea of not knowing even more.  Isaac said he would be able to keep it a secret from me if he found out.  I don't know if he would be able to wait.  Either way though lots of time to figure that out.

Overall I'm doing well.  Still having occasional pink mixed with my cervical mucous and some cramping but no actual bleeding or spotting.  I know my cervix is super sensitive so I'm guessing it's just from all the extra blood flow going on down there.  That's pretty much all I have to report for now.  I'll post again soon. 

Things are going well.  I had a moment on Wednesday where I slightly panicked as I was having cramps and just kept thinking what happens if I loose this.  It was like I finally have proof that we are pregnant that our prayers are answered.  Already we are past the time frame we where at before with our other two losses.  All the what ifs kept coming to mind. 

But I've realized that I can't allow the fear of tomorrow to rob today of it's joy.  We are pregnant.  Everything looks good.  In just two weeks I will be able to have our first ultrasound.  I'm excited to see the little peanut.  We also came up with a super creative way to announce we are expecting again though I wont be sharing on here I want to post the end results when we decide to announce to everyone.

So overall everything is good there is nothing new to report which I love!  I just wanted to give a little update. 

Second Beta

Things are looking good.  She said the numbers are still low but that everything is just looking like a very early pregnancy.  My first Number was 26.2  and the second one was 148.7.  She told me she was going to have me come in for one more beta on March 1st and then have me see the obgyn later that week.  I told her I decided to go with a midwife for birth instead and asked if the Dr wanted to see me for a set amount of time before I transfer to them.  She put me on hold, I could tell she was a little shocked.  She came back and asked if the midwives actually do prenatal care?  I explained(or tried to) how it really isn't any different but that they work with the obgyn you saw on your other tests if necessary and then move forward from there.  She said since that is what I want to do they will release me now and just have me follow up with them but to let them know if they need anything. 

I thought it was a little sad she didn't know what a certified midwife does.  But I feel at peace with this decision.  It has sucked to have so much out of your control and to rely on other people to be able to go forward to get pregnant.  Being with the midwives makes me feel normal in a way.  I feel like it's just so less invasive. 

So there we have it.  My numbers more than doubled.  A super early pregnancy and I am just going to trust God that He has his hands on me.