38 Weeks

Today I hit 38 weeks.  This pregnancy seems to have flown by but also seems to be going so slow all at the same time.  It's amazing how that can happen together.  Yesterday I felt like a 90 year old woman with joint and hip pain.  Today it's better for sure.  Little man has been moving a ton and I love it.  I love seeing my stomach jump around and bounce all over the place along with the hiccups, the feel of him inside me.

I look back over this incredibly long journey, one that is just under 2 months shy of 3 years and remember that longing I had to be able to experience this.  All I wanted was to be able to feel my little one move around inside.  I wanted to experience the miracle of child birth.  Something that will be happening so soon.

I look back at all the things we have gone through to get here.  Not just in this past year since becoming pregnant but in general since August of 2012 when we started this journey.  All the heart ache, the stress, the feeling of brokenness, uselessness ect;  But we made it through.  And we made it through so much stronger than ever expected.

God despite how hard these challenges where in the past couple years.  Despite it all, you brought us through.  You brought us closer together with it.  You brought us to know you and know who you are.  God I thank you for bringing us closer to this next chapter.  I thank you that you will indeed open the doors that need to be open and close those doors that need to be closed.  I thank you Lord for it all!  God I ask that you would cause all things, labor, delivery, jobs ect; to work together for the benefit of your glory.  I thank you that when it is time we will be in a safe comfortable place and Isaac and I will be together through it.  I ask for your safety on both of us.  And I speak your word that says the angels of the Lord are dispatched around the righteous to watch over them.  You watch over us Lord.  And we praise you for that Father.  Help us to continue to bring glory, honor and praise to you Jesus.  ~Amen

I had my 38 week appointment today which went great.  Stomach is measuring at 39.5cm compared to last weeks 37cm.  But she said that could be that he had a growth spurt or just the way he is laying.  Either way things are looking good and really its just a waiting game now for whenever he wants to come.

That being said since I hit 38 weeks I did try for the first time my birthing guide track on my hypnobabies.  This can be used to start labor, but is more for when you go into labor the tape you will listen to to help bring you deeper into hypnosis.  And I have to say it worked wonderfully.  I was so incredibly relaxed....I found the message to be inspiring and insightful.  I don't plan on listening to it every day I just wanted to listen to it today to know what's on it now I'll go about my regular tapes until next week.  Then I might listen to it more.  

 The midwife gave me a few car seat pads to keep in my car so that when/if my water breaks I don't have to worry about getting my seats ruined.  So that made me happy.  This week is my last week of work before starting maternity leave.  I work 4 hours tomorrow, 6 Wednesday, 5 Thursday, 4 Friday then 4 on Saturday.  Then I am done.   With how uncomfortable I am it is really hard for me to be happy to see my clients when they come in, even the ones I love and have formed a really good relationship with.  But I will try to continue to just take things day by day hour by hour.  Listen to my body and get as much rest as I can.  Five more days of work I can do it!  That is of course unless he decides he is coming earlier.  But my Mom flies in next week, really late on Wednesday so if he decides to stay in till closer I keep telling myself I'm okay with it but really that changes on an hourly basis.