Steps are being made in the right direction in regards to my heart. Before if someone told me they were pregnant I would get happy but then just jealous, angry and upset. I have a friend I work with who surprisingly didn't know that my husband and I were trying to get pregnant, at this point I thought everyone knew due to the fact my reaction to the question When are you gonna have a baby? had become rather straightforward, blunt and put in a way to make sure that I never heard them ask me again.
So when she found out we had been trying for over a year she confided in me that her and her husband had been trying for 2 years with no success. She told me that she had tried to get advice from her gyno and they told her just to keep an eye on her cervical mucus and plan sex accordingly but that she didn't really understand what that ment. So I took the time to explain things. She had believed that the thicker stretchier stuff would actually hinder the sperm movement so after explaining signs of ovulation, and some little tricks she decided to try it. Well just a few days ago she told me she is pregnant! Only a few weeks after we had our talk, she timed accordingly and it all happened!
I have to say for the first time in a very long time I am actually genuinely so happy for someone who tells me they are pregnant. Maybe its because I know she was struggling even longer than I was and so its just so good to see someone have break through. Maybe it's a sign for myself that things can only get better.
Either way it's sooo good not to be jealous about it. Thank you Jesus!
I have to say I just feel that if things don't happen soon I really believe I'll be ok. I know that each day is a journey that has its own purpose, its own plan and its own destiny. Now ask me in a week if I still feel this way and I may feel differently. But all in all I would say that God has granted me peace and it's amazing!
Friday, September 20, 2013
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Kim Walker - How He loves us
I don't know if anyone needs to hear this but this is a song that is just speaking to me so much today. I am so blessed to know just how much He loves us!
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Ready to get this show on the road
So I am now officially less than one month away from my endocrinologist visit. I am so incredibly ready to get this show on the road. But a part of me wonders...will getting my thyroid fixed actually help me get pregnant? What if there is a bigger picture there. What if its not enough. But we can't life our lives based on what ifs can we?
I quit taking the vitex two weeks ago (my Dr's didn't know anything about it and are not sure that I will be able to take it when on Synthroid so suggested I stop now) and since then my hypothyroid symptoms have gotten worse. I feel so dizzy all the time but ESPECIALLY when I am just sitting or trying to relax it will legitimately feel like the room is spinning and I'm gonna end up either passing out or falling over. A part of me wonders if since the Vitex works as a hormone balancer it was actually helping keep my thyroid levels from getting even more out of control. But here is my issue. I dont want to take it and have my levels begin to stabalize and then lets say I get pregnant and end up going off and boom my levels are crazy again resulting in a miscarriage. You can not take Vitex while pregnant so what do I do? I'm planning to try and get in to the DR sooner because these symptoms are just getting worse and worse and I'm afraid I'm gonna end up hurting myself.
I am a hairdresser so I'm on my feet all day long and there will be times I'm cutting someones hair, applying color or just even blowing them dry and I start getting so dizzy! I had to go sit in the back twice this past Saturday just to try and help the room stop spinning. But this is especially not good while I'm driving. But the fatigue has also gotten worse. If I do nothing all day I'm ok but as soon as I start working or trying to get things accomplished I feel as if I ran a marathon and can't seem to wake up. So I've been drinking tons of coffee, witch I don't think is a good thing.
But I'm hoping and praying that this will all be a quick fix to at least get me stabilized and that we will be well on our way to starting a beautiful family. I do have to say I am super excited. I believe I did ovulate today, though way too late in my cycle I'm on CD 28 and will start my period on day 31. So unless a miracle interveens no pregnancy for us. But I am excited I was actually able to ovulate even though I am not taking Vitex, witch after having anovulatory cycles until taking the vitex I feel this in itself is a great step.
Isaac(my husband)started a new job and at the end of the year if they meet there quota everyone gets a bonus....He asked me last night what I would want to do with the bonus if we get it. I said I dont know put it in savings, maybe take a nice vacation, he told me He was thinking maybe artificial insemination treatment or adoption Not right away, but holding onto the money just in case and using it for that if need be. I just wanted to hold him so close. He wants this so badly and is being so great and supportive. I know that God has a purpose and a plan for everyting and I know that He will work all things out for us. I just have to keep reminding myself that.
As of now I have no trips to focus on, nothing exciting coming my way so I feel I'm really at this point of just rest. Just doing nothing.....Just plain sit and wait.
Now I'm just trying to hold out on taking the Vitex. Even now as I'm sitting at my computer desk typing my head is spinning and I'm glad I'm sitting down, though I kinda feel like I need a seat belt.
We both want this so badly. Lord please help us to trust in you, to Rest in you to lay it all down at your feet. My preciouse Jesus I love you with all that I am. I need you, we need you. Guide our steps we pray in your holy name~Amen.
I quit taking the vitex two weeks ago (my Dr's didn't know anything about it and are not sure that I will be able to take it when on Synthroid so suggested I stop now) and since then my hypothyroid symptoms have gotten worse. I feel so dizzy all the time but ESPECIALLY when I am just sitting or trying to relax it will legitimately feel like the room is spinning and I'm gonna end up either passing out or falling over. A part of me wonders if since the Vitex works as a hormone balancer it was actually helping keep my thyroid levels from getting even more out of control. But here is my issue. I dont want to take it and have my levels begin to stabalize and then lets say I get pregnant and end up going off and boom my levels are crazy again resulting in a miscarriage. You can not take Vitex while pregnant so what do I do? I'm planning to try and get in to the DR sooner because these symptoms are just getting worse and worse and I'm afraid I'm gonna end up hurting myself.
I am a hairdresser so I'm on my feet all day long and there will be times I'm cutting someones hair, applying color or just even blowing them dry and I start getting so dizzy! I had to go sit in the back twice this past Saturday just to try and help the room stop spinning. But this is especially not good while I'm driving. But the fatigue has also gotten worse. If I do nothing all day I'm ok but as soon as I start working or trying to get things accomplished I feel as if I ran a marathon and can't seem to wake up. So I've been drinking tons of coffee, witch I don't think is a good thing.
But I'm hoping and praying that this will all be a quick fix to at least get me stabilized and that we will be well on our way to starting a beautiful family. I do have to say I am super excited. I believe I did ovulate today, though way too late in my cycle I'm on CD 28 and will start my period on day 31. So unless a miracle interveens no pregnancy for us. But I am excited I was actually able to ovulate even though I am not taking Vitex, witch after having anovulatory cycles until taking the vitex I feel this in itself is a great step.
Isaac(my husband)started a new job and at the end of the year if they meet there quota everyone gets a bonus....He asked me last night what I would want to do with the bonus if we get it. I said I dont know put it in savings, maybe take a nice vacation, he told me He was thinking maybe artificial insemination treatment or adoption Not right away, but holding onto the money just in case and using it for that if need be. I just wanted to hold him so close. He wants this so badly and is being so great and supportive. I know that God has a purpose and a plan for everyting and I know that He will work all things out for us. I just have to keep reminding myself that.
As of now I have no trips to focus on, nothing exciting coming my way so I feel I'm really at this point of just rest. Just doing nothing.....Just plain sit and wait.
Now I'm just trying to hold out on taking the Vitex. Even now as I'm sitting at my computer desk typing my head is spinning and I'm glad I'm sitting down, though I kinda feel like I need a seat belt.
We both want this so badly. Lord please help us to trust in you, to Rest in you to lay it all down at your feet. My preciouse Jesus I love you with all that I am. I need you, we need you. Guide our steps we pray in your holy name~Amen.
Monday, September 2, 2013
Vitex is it right for you?
So I decided to write my own review on using Vitex in order to try and regulate your cycles and become pregnant. I have to say that when I was considering using this product I had such an incredibly hard time finding recent reviews or information on it so here we go:
So just a warning this review is going to be very long and detailed but I feel it will help people make the decision on if this product is right for them.
I started taking Vitex exactly 11 weeks ago. The reason I began Vitex is my husband and I have been trying to conceive. After almost a year of trying I decided to start charting my cycles because even though we were using home ovulation predictor kits we still were not getting pregnant. I normally get my period every 31 days*pretty much exactly* except when I was coming off the pill it was 28 days the first two months. Well After beginning the charting I discovered I had what looked like anvoluntary cycles(my temps where everywhere!) even though I was getting the rise in hormones to show on the predictor kits I wasn't actually ovulating. So after doing some research Vitex seemed like a good way to try and get my progesterone levels to rise high enough to get me to ovulate and hopefully balance out some other hormone issues.
But I can say it didn't work quite like I was expecting it to. The first two weeks I took 1 400mg pill 2x a day(once in the morning and once at night) I then after two weeks went ahead and uped it to 3x a day morning, afternoon and evening. The first month I took it I actually ovulated! BUT super late! If any of you are familiar with charting your cycles you know that you can confirm ovulation from the temps well my temps were still kinda all over the place just like they are with the anovulatory cycles till suddenly boom I ovulated but I didn't actually ovulate until cycle day 35, well along with ovulating so late I had so many pregnancy symptoms! My boobs hurt so bad, I started lactating(yes actually lactating and I have never had a child or been pregnant before) and got a super sensitive sense of smell. All this made me believe I had in fact become pregnant. Well then when I finally did get my period 10 days late (on day 41 this gave me a 5 day Luteal phase) I was crushed. I had thought the vitex would have me ovulate earlier, but instead it had me ovulate just too late in my cylce for it to do any good. So I continued taking it. Well this past month I ovulated for a second time this time on cycle day 31 with only a 3 day luteal phase. No lactation this time I did however get the sensitive boobs but I knew what to look for. BUT this time my temps where actually steady and not all over the place. So I did in fact ovulate a little early but with a shorter luteal phase and still too late in the cycle. So I have to say I like it because I am actually ovulating now. But I do have to say that it has not helped with the periods. I normally bleed 10-12 days. Well since starting vitex each period has lasted 10 days but I ended up on both periods getting severe cramping and huge clots....But i am thinking part of this may end up being the fact that I actually ovulated so am legitimately shedding the uterus lining.
Side effects: I really am not sure how to answer this. I can't say there is anything in particular I can point a finger to. For a long time now(before taking vitex) I have been getting dizzy spells so since taking vitex they have become more frequent. So I went to my general dr and had some labs drawn and it looks like I have hypothyroidism. So I am not sure if the vitex is what kicked that into a little bit worse or if my thyroid has said enough is enough get treatment now.
I am still waiting for my visit with the endocrinologist to get this under control and then plan on continuing vitex if allowed by the dr. Until then one pill a day will continue.
I will post a more updated account on taking this product in a few months and see if my cycles become even more regulated. But to summarize Vitex did help me to actually ovulate, just so far Not quite where I need to be :-) But like any medication or vitamins if unsure talk to your DR. First. Good luck!
So just a warning this review is going to be very long and detailed but I feel it will help people make the decision on if this product is right for them.
I started taking Vitex exactly 11 weeks ago. The reason I began Vitex is my husband and I have been trying to conceive. After almost a year of trying I decided to start charting my cycles because even though we were using home ovulation predictor kits we still were not getting pregnant. I normally get my period every 31 days*pretty much exactly* except when I was coming off the pill it was 28 days the first two months. Well After beginning the charting I discovered I had what looked like anvoluntary cycles(my temps where everywhere!) even though I was getting the rise in hormones to show on the predictor kits I wasn't actually ovulating. So after doing some research Vitex seemed like a good way to try and get my progesterone levels to rise high enough to get me to ovulate and hopefully balance out some other hormone issues.
But I can say it didn't work quite like I was expecting it to. The first two weeks I took 1 400mg pill 2x a day(once in the morning and once at night) I then after two weeks went ahead and uped it to 3x a day morning, afternoon and evening. The first month I took it I actually ovulated! BUT super late! If any of you are familiar with charting your cycles you know that you can confirm ovulation from the temps well my temps were still kinda all over the place just like they are with the anovulatory cycles till suddenly boom I ovulated but I didn't actually ovulate until cycle day 35, well along with ovulating so late I had so many pregnancy symptoms! My boobs hurt so bad, I started lactating(yes actually lactating and I have never had a child or been pregnant before) and got a super sensitive sense of smell. All this made me believe I had in fact become pregnant. Well then when I finally did get my period 10 days late (on day 41 this gave me a 5 day Luteal phase) I was crushed. I had thought the vitex would have me ovulate earlier, but instead it had me ovulate just too late in my cylce for it to do any good. So I continued taking it. Well this past month I ovulated for a second time this time on cycle day 31 with only a 3 day luteal phase. No lactation this time I did however get the sensitive boobs but I knew what to look for. BUT this time my temps where actually steady and not all over the place. So I did in fact ovulate a little early but with a shorter luteal phase and still too late in the cycle. So I have to say I like it because I am actually ovulating now. But I do have to say that it has not helped with the periods. I normally bleed 10-12 days. Well since starting vitex each period has lasted 10 days but I ended up on both periods getting severe cramping and huge clots....But i am thinking part of this may end up being the fact that I actually ovulated so am legitimately shedding the uterus lining.
Side effects: I really am not sure how to answer this. I can't say there is anything in particular I can point a finger to. For a long time now(before taking vitex) I have been getting dizzy spells so since taking vitex they have become more frequent. So I went to my general dr and had some labs drawn and it looks like I have hypothyroidism. So I am not sure if the vitex is what kicked that into a little bit worse or if my thyroid has said enough is enough get treatment now.
I am still waiting for my visit with the endocrinologist to get this under control and then plan on continuing vitex if allowed by the dr. Until then one pill a day will continue.
I will post a more updated account on taking this product in a few months and see if my cycles become even more regulated. But to summarize Vitex did help me to actually ovulate, just so far Not quite where I need to be :-) But like any medication or vitamins if unsure talk to your DR. First. Good luck!
Sunday, September 1, 2013
As long as I stay busy things are ok. But the moment I just stop and things slow down I just want to bawl my eyes out. But I'm not sure about what exactly. Is it the over whelming desire to be a Mom? No I don't think so. Is it the wait to get the help I need? Maybe but not sure. Is it just my emotions in general? I don't know I feel like there is just way too much going on right now and I'm not sure where to go from here. I keep telling myself one day at a time. One day I'll be a Mom, one day I'll feel better but ONE DAY isn't coming soon enough.
I think I'm just so tired of the emotional ups and downs that have come over and over again. I just have to wait take a deep breath and keep on plugin. I'll get these huge urges of panic then next thing I know peace like a river washing over me and I'm so grateful for that.
On the pregnant thing I'm thinking about taking a break from Vitex for a while but haven't decided yet. It took this long for me to finally get it into my system. But I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
I think I'm just so tired of the emotional ups and downs that have come over and over again. I just have to wait take a deep breath and keep on plugin. I'll get these huge urges of panic then next thing I know peace like a river washing over me and I'm so grateful for that.
On the pregnant thing I'm thinking about taking a break from Vitex for a while but haven't decided yet. It took this long for me to finally get it into my system. But I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
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