One down two more to go

So today I went in for my cycle day three blood work up and vaginal ultrasound.  Everything went by super fast.  The ultra sound tech was however having problems getting pictures of my right ovary.  She said she knew she was pushing and causing me discomfort and that she was sorry.  Actually the exact term she used was that she was pushing her way to China.  She then decided she needed to try and get a better picture from the outside, but that was in all less than 15 seconds...she literally lifted my shirt put the Doppler on my stomach and said no never mind this isn't going to work I was hoping to get a better picture but that's okay I got a picture from the inside.

So I hope by that she means a usable picture for the doctor because if she doesn't I am NOT paying for another one.

So now that cycle day 3's testing is done the next will be cycle day 21 and then the Surge confirmation tests.  So I talked to the scheduler to set up our sit down and talk treatments meeting and it wont be able to happen till the beginning of April because I have to wait for my Surge confirmation and since I ovulate so late that wont happen till around cycle day 25-28 and she will be out of the office the following week. 

I'm trying to just know that this is okay and for a reason but I keep seeing a clock with time just ticking away through my head and just want so badly to make it go away.  If I can't go in till April and if Clomid is actually what I need then it means I can not get treatment until the NEXT cycle begins.  So that means another two months!  I know I know I may be jumping the gun but still I do not like the prospect of waiting.  So I may ask about a trigger shot.



But on the bright side with the wait it gives me more time to put our finances together.  With the winter we are having this year we had our front steps and porch get some major ice damage so we are going to have to redo all of that, not exactly wonderful timing but that's okay.

I know my God is bigger than any bill that comes our way and He has provided for us miraculously over and over again. 

Doesn't mean I'm happy about the wait but it does mean that He has a reason for it.  I know when we finally hold our baby it will be His perfect timing and I'll be so glad things were not rushed.

God it's so much easier to repeat these things to oneself than to truly live by them.  I can not do this on my own I need your help.  I need you to just guide and direct me into the place that you desire for me to go.  We have asked you to open doors you want to and close those you want, and now I ask you to help us be okay with that.  Help us to not stress.  Help us to grab hold of that peace you give us every single day and run with it.  I thank you Lord Jesus.  In your Holy Name!Amen

Cycle Day 1 is here!

So here it is.  I started a very light period today!  For the first time in a crazy long time I was so excited to get my period!  So I called the nurses line today and left a message to schedule the cycle day 3 blood draw and a transvaginal ultra sound.  I do have to say I feel very bad for whoever has to do that job.  An ultra sound while someone is on there period....I can't imagine that a pleasant experience. 

So I feel better about the money stuff today.  I realize that God really is in control and it will all end up working out, it always does.  That and we got a a paper in the mail showing that insurance is actually covering part of some of the tests.  Not a lot but a little bit off each test sure comes in handy. 

The next cycle is on the horizon

So today is day 3 that I have been off and on spotting.  It's a week earlier than it should be but I'm assuming maybe the procedures helped speed things along.  As soon as my period does come I can set up my final tests!  I am so ready to finish this "testing phase" and get to the results/game planning phase.

I do have to say I hope that since my period is coming sooner that it will also be shorter. 

Right after the Sonohystagram I had a few big blood clots come out so hopefully that was "cleaning out the gutter" so to speak. 

Lately I have been thinking about money for the first time in a long time.  I haven't worried about money in a long time.  And now I'm not worried per say but I see the costs adding up and just have to keep telling myself that God is in control.  He is a miracle worker and has provided for us over and over again. 

It doesn't help that we have a huge job we have to have done on the house that is gonna cost a pretty penny couldn't have come at a worse time.  But we are just gonna pinch pennies and put as much money into it as we can. 
Psalm 23 (King James Version)

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

² He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
³ He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
⁴ Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
⁵ Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

One more step.....

Every morning I wake up and just think of the day as One More Step.  One more step in the right direction.  One more step in getting myself answers.  I feel really good and I feel confident I am finally getting the answers we need.  I however HATE the wait.  But every day brings us One more step in the right direction. 

I know that God is bringing us there.  I know that God is going to continue to provide peace.  But until then I want to be able to make a difference in the lives of those around me.  I want so badly to be a mother, but like I said just a few posts ago I don't want to allow the journey to become my idol.

Lord I know you see my heart and my desires.  I want to make a difference in the lives of all those around me.  I want to bring Glory to you in every situation.  Open the doors for us to walk through and close those you desire to close.  Help us to be on the same page.  I thank you that no matter what trials come my way You see it all before it gets to us and will bring us through it.  Thank you my Savior.   Let it be done. 

Hysterosalpingogram test(hsg/dye test)

Yesterday I went in for the Hysterosalpingogram/dye test and everything was all clear.  It wasn't nearly as uncomfortable/painful as I was expecting.  Actually I started cramping up and thought that was just because she was inserting the catheter and was waiting for more pain to begin with the dye but next thing I know the xray is taking pictures of my ovaries and tubes.  It only felt like menstrual cramps, and I didn't bleed nearly as bad as I did with the Sonohysterogram.  I have to say I absolutely love my Reproductive Endocrinologist.  She is so personable and you can tell passionate about what she does as well.

I have my 2 hour glucose test scheduled for Monday and then its a matter of waiting for my next period to start and then on to more testing. 

Morning of the Sonohysterogram

2/11/14 10:20 am
So I'm about to leave to head to my Dr appointment for the Sonohysterogram.   I have to say I am honestly a little nervous.  I keep telling myself that this is something thousands of women do every year when struggling with fertility.  I think it's more fear of the unknown of what it's going to feel like.  Good time to practice breathing exercises I guess.  But when I get back I want to get on here and give an account of how it is in case anyone needs to know what to expect.  That being said look for the edit at the bottom of this entry in a bit. 

EDIT: 3:15 pm

So it went well- no pain at all a little discomfort or pinching I guess you could call it- Just like my pap smears.  But apparently I have a very sensitive cervix cause I started bleeding even with just the vaginal ultrasound probe so when she went in to insert the catheter I was already bleeding so she said she has not seen someone bleed that much.  When I stood up after it was done it poured out of me with the rest of the fluid.

She wasn't concerned when I told her I wasn't bleeding at all till after my vaginal probe, so its probably just kind of sensitive due to my lack of use since we've been having to abstain (my own opinion)

She found a fibroid, but it's on my outer uteran muscles and less than 2cm so it's not in a place it will effect becoming pregnant(but does explain the long periods since its on the outer muscle so it had trouble contracting) but also anything smaller than 4cm they don't remove.  So all is well.  I have a nice healthy looking uterus just ready and waiting for a baby. 

So on to the next test :-)

Our Fertility Appointment

So we had our visit with the fertility specialist she was very very thorough and they gave us as much time as we needed for this I was incredibly grateful.  Over the next two months I have a TON of testing I have to get done but some of it had to wait till next cycle all in all it will be a full two cycles before we have all the answers and can get treatment

Apparently she was surprised I was diagnosed with PCOS on blood work alone she said with her looking at my labs she never would have started me on metformin without other tests since only a few of the things lined up with PCOS not most.  So she will do those and see if I do in fact have PCOS.  So I am to stop the metformin until she takes these tests. 
 Next week I will be getting done two procedures: a Hysterosalpingogram and a Sonohysterogram.  They are both somewhat invasive so I will be given antibiotics I am to start Sunday and then continue to take them for the week as I get the procedures done.  Then in two weeks I go for a 2 hour glucose test where I get to drink the lovely nasty drink then wait for two hours then have my blood drawn.


  Then once  CD 1 starts I have a Lot of other tests I have to do throughout the cycle.  On Cycle day 1-3 I go in for blood work.  Cycle day 21 an ultra sound then the first day of a positive OPK go in for more blood work and another ultra sound.  And I think I'm missing one but I have all the scripts handy.  They said its possible since I ovulate so late in my cycle to do the CD 21 and the = + opk on the same day***that is if I get a + by then***So after all these tests are completed she will meet with us again and decide on treatment.

My husband Isaac is getting his sperm tested this Tuesday...the same day as my sonohystagram.  So we will both be making visits to the clinic that day, just at different times.

I am so excited to be having answers done but kind of nervous on what will be found at the same time too.  I know in the end it will all work out though. 

Here are some videos I found on what the differen't procedures are in case people do not know:

Sonohysterogram:

HSG(Hysterosalpingogram):