I am so blessed!

I had a really long work day today that just was so incredibly busy.  During work I got some pretty intense round ligament pain where it started at my belly button and then seemed to just reverberate down all the way to my cervix.   Then since they had the heat blaring and it was so hot in the salon I was drinking  a TON of water so felt like I could pee all the time...and I almost did.  I'm guessing Ezekiel decided to start kicking my bladder I would get random little spurts of feeling like I was literally going to have pee just squirt out.  Thankfully didn't happen all day and he moved and started kicking the other side.  I love feeling the little guy kick.

Isaac got to feel him move from the outside for the first time a few nights ago and since then every night he's felt him at least once.  He's been a pretty active little guy which I LOVE.  I have had a few quiet days here and there. 

But back to my main story I was just exhausted from work come home to discover Isaac put the crib together, the blinds back up and the light switch cover on.  And he painted last night.  I am so excited!  I was so cranky when I got home and this just made it so much better!  I am so blessed.  I have an amazing husband and it's all so much fun. 

Oh the Joys of Mood Swings

I have been feeling so good this pregnancy with my mood swings and crazy feelings being very few and far between.  For some reason this morning I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something.  I slept so good and I felt I was actually ready to tackle the day.  But it all started with me realizing I had no idea what I was going to cook Isaac for dinner and I would take it for my lunch/dinner.  So I decided to text him and ask what he would want cooked.  He gave me a list with the first several things naming chicken dishes that do sound so good but that I can't eat.  It just made me so mad.  I have not been able to eat chicken breasts still.  The only kind of chicken I can get myself to eat is ground turkey(still not chicken) or chicken salad.  I'm guessing because the chicken is cut so small the texture just doesn't bother me. 

So after his first few ideas where things I couldn't eat but really want to I just got really mad/sad all at once.  Then I just got hit with a huge tired spell though I've only been up for less than an hour and a half.  So I'm sitting there at the table sulking and I feel Ezekiel give me a little kick and I couldn't do anything but smile.  I know that it's just the hormones helping me feel a little crazy but I know that it is all just going to be so worth it.  But either way until then I am going to listen to my body and go take a nap. 

19 Weeks Today

Today I had my 19 week appointment with my midwife and we went over the anatomy scan and she said everything looked PERFECT! That was such a relief/exciting thing to hear!  Especially with everything that we've been through to get here.  She said I know you declined the genetic scans and based on your ultrasounds we wouldn't even suggest them unless you just really want them.  I go back in 5 weeks at 24 weeks(which will also be the week I hit VIABILITY!) for my glucose test.

She went to find the heartbeat had a little bit of trouble at first then she found him so after she found it we got to listen for a few seconds then he decided he had enough and your hear a big swoosh and he swam away lol.  It was funny she laughed and said Whelp there he goes he just swam away.  The heart beat was right around 150 beats per minute.  So everything is perfect.  

In other news I decided to open an etsy account.  I have just been wanting to paint so much but no idea what to do with all the paintings when I'm done they end up in a stack without a home.  So here is my etsy account for anyone who is interested:

My Etsy Shop 

It's coming together

Today Isaac and I got the rest of the office all cleared out so it is now officially the nursery!  Oh its just so exciting!  He will be painting it next weekend a light blue and then we will be getting the crib, dresser, rocker all that stuff put together and moved in there.

Here is what it looks like now though I still have to vacuum and steam clean.

 Since we are doing Calvin and hobbes and here are a few of the wall decorations and so forth we are going to be ordering:

We also found a crib set we like.  So I ordered that today.  We wanted to keep it really simple to not detract from the theme.  So we ordered the three piece (comforter, fitted sheet and skirt) set of this:

It's all becoming so real.  I am absolutely loving being pregnant.  Despite how hard it was to get here, the hardships that occurred while being here I am just so incredibly happy.  Tomorrow I will be 19 weeks.  Almost half way there!  I can't believe it!  I am just so blessed and amazed by it all.  God is just so good.

On a physical side of things I do miss sleeping through the night without waking every hour or so to pee.  I also miss just getting really sound nights of sleep in general.  But it's all worth it.  

I felt him kick!

So today I felt Ezekiel kick from the outside!  It was so incredible!  I had to trick him a little bit by sitting on the couch then putting my hand immediately there for about 15 minutes before I finally felt him kick.  But then once he started I felt a lot of them.  It was the most indescribably amazing feeling ever!

I got home from work tonight and Isaac laid his hand there to try and feel himself.  He only ended up feeling a little flutter but I know that the stronger he gets I don't think he will be able to hide from us much.   Sorry for the cat hair on the pants my cat just got up and moved leaving evidence of his snuggles.

Either way it is just so incredible.  I did figure out that if I he's being too quiet I can just make a fruit smoothie(just straight frozen fruit and milk) and he loves it and starts going crazy!  Its just so amazing.

Tomorrow after I get off work Isaac and I are meeting at target to register for baby stuff.  So excited!

TMI alert coming-warning you now.  Since we found out my hemorrhage was gone we finally took the plunge to re-engage our sex life.  It was actually really nerve wracking.  I was hoping when we finally got released things would be better and we would love it and it would be amazing.  Well don't get me wrong it turned out in the end to be amazing but to start...yeah not so much.  It was a  little painful and with my stomach now kind of getting in the way a little hard to find the right position.  But we "persevered" haha and it all turned out to be amazing.  I'm so glad to finally be free.  I could tell Isaac was just as nervous as I was.  I swear it was like our wedding night all over again. 

Gender Reveal Cupcakes

Devin's Gender Reveal Cupcakes:

Boy or Girl what will it be?

Well take a bite and then you'll see

Pink for a girl or Blue for a boy

But while your at it please enjoy! 

Here is just a quick step by step of what I did.   

 

AND IT'S A:

We are pleased to Announce that in June we will be welcoming little Ezekiel Ray into the family!  The ultrasound was amazing!  And he was moving around a little and just all around beautiful!  When it came time to find out the gender he was NOT shy at all.  I wish I had a picture of that shot because he just spread those legs and showed his goods to us no problem.  I did get a few really nice profile pictures and in one of them you can kind of use it as a gender reveal but not nearly as obvious as it was.  We are 100% sure it's a boy. 

Sorry for some reason it won't let me rotate them.  But either way it is definitely a boy.

My heart is joy overflowing.  I would have been thrilled either way.  But when she said boy I just felt in my Spirit...that THIS is what God promised us.  He promised us little Ezekiel so very long ago and He has brought that to pass. I feel my heart just rejoicing!  I am so incredibly blessed and excited!  Now I'm going to go make those gender reveal cupcakes for work and I will post a picture here when done. 

Anticipating Tomorrow

I am so excited yet nervous all at the same time.  Yesterday after I blogged I went to work and suddenly had a miniature panic attack out of no where while I was there.  What ifs coming to mind all this nonsense that I don't want to allow into my heart and soul.  What if something is wrong with the baby.  What if this or that.  So when I got off work I just laid on the couch and waited for the baby to start moving and I have to admit to breathing a huge sigh of relief when it did.  It was like it was reminding me that it was still there and everything would be okay.  Today the little nugget has been going pretty crazy all day.  I notice on the days I have a fruit smoothie for breakfast it moves around a ton, so I think that's on the agenda for tomorrow morning.

Today after Church Isaac and I went to lunch and just talked baby stuff.  It was so nice and relaxing then we decided to go pick out our stroller and we found one we love!  Here is the picture of it.  We found this one at Burlington but Khols, Target and Baby's R Us all carry it..Burlington had the cheapest price though and the reviews on it are pretty good.

It looks more blue here in the pictures but its actually a really nice teal color.  When Isaac saw it he said he liked it for a boy, I told him I liked it for a girl and walla gender neutral stroller picked out.  And it doesn't expire till 7/2020 so we will be able to use it for our next one too.

I also prepared myself for the gender reveal cupcakes I am going to make.  I have them baked now all I have to do is find out what we want and then go forward from there.

Two more days

In just two more days I will get to see my beautiful baby again.  I am so ready.  It will look like a real human this time instead of a little gummy bear with arms.  I went on pinterest today and got a lot of ideas for gender reveal cupcakes I want to make to bring into work so I am very excited to get on that.  I'm just praying baby co-operates and moves around enough that we can see what is down there instead of just keeping its legs crossed.

If for some reason we can't tell then we will just go ahead an schedule a elective ultrasound in order to find out.  I really don't think I can be surprised with this.  I want to call my little one by name and start bonding that way. 

Only 3 More Days!!!

Monday!!!!  I can not wait.  At 8 am we have our Dr's appointment to find out if it is a boy or girl and to see our little nugget for the first time in 9 weeks.  I can not wait to see that little one moving all around. 

I feel the baby move now every day.  I sit down on the couch and it just goes crazy.   I have to say I think this little stinker is going to give us a run for our money on feeling it move from the outside.  I will feel it moving around like crazy so I will put my hand there to try and feel it and then it just stops...not flutters, no kicks(which feel like just tiny little pops those are not very often) nothing.  So I'll move my hand and in  a few more minutes I'll feel it move again so I try to put my hand there and nothing.  It actually makes me giggle.  Almost like it is trying to play hide and go seek.

I've been feeling really good.  I still want to nap in the middle of the day but i don't feel like I'm exhausted all the time.  I feel like the second trimester is going to be good for me.  I am getting my sweet tooth back but I'm trying hard not to give in all the time...but I have to admit it's hard and I've given in more times than I care to admit.

I plan on making gender reveal cupcakes to bring into work after the ultrasound on Monday in order to share with my coworkers if it's a boy or girl. 

Here is a picture I took a few days ago when I hit 17 weeks.  I'm not in a maternity shirt.  And I'm noticing they get really short towards the belly.  So far I'm up about 3 pounds....which I'm pretty proud of.  Hoping to only gain one pound a week right now but I'm starting to get the unhealthy cravings lately so I am also trying to combat that.  I still want fruit a lot so I've been letting myself enjoy oranges, apples and fruit smoothies for breakfast though fruit isn't exactly in season in January.  I've found some decent ones. 

Can't wait to share with you readers pink or blue on Monday!!!

A Letter To My Baby

I haven't seen your face yet.  I don't even know if your a boy or a girl.  But know that you are so very loved.  I think about you every day.  I wait to feel your movements and anticipate it every second. Even now you are already in my prayers.  We have struggled so hard to bring you into this world.  But we know that every struggle and frustration was so worth it.  We are so excited to share the world with you.  To share our love, our knowledge our gifts with you.  To watch you grow up into whatever it is you want to become.  

I will tell you that wherever God leads you we commit to support you.  If he tells you to go the Appalachians and help the poor, or to become a postman or anything.  Whatever you feel led to do we will be there with you.  Nothing you ever do will make us not love you.  Nothing you ever do will make us love you less.  Already our hearts flow in overabundance. 

You are beautiful, though I've never seen your face.  You are perfect though you are not even yet breathing air.  We love you and can not wait to hold you in our arms. 

We commit to love you unconditionally.  To raise you up in the way God would have us to.  We will let you discover the beauty of the relationship with our creator on your own.  Though we will be there to share what wisdom we can. 

We commit to protect you.  To do everything we can to keep you out of harms way and to lay down our lives for you if that were ever necessary.

We love you little one.  And in just 8 more days we will be able to call you by name.  We will know if you are a boy or girl.  But either way nothing will change.  Your still our angel.  Our blessing from the Lord.  And we can't wait to see your face. 

Belly Transitions

I was going through my phone and was amazed at the transition you can see as my belly grows.  So Here  is a little look  into that...I  dont have a  picture for every week but you'll get the picture.

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 This last one I took today.  Definitely  loving every second of it.  I weighed myself this  morning and have only gained  about 3 pounds so far.  So  that made me happy since Ihave so much extra  pudge I started  with already.  

16 weeks

Today I am 16 weeks pregnant.  It seems like time if flying by but crawling at the same time if that makes any sense at all.  I have to say I enjoy being pregnant immensely, despite the stress of the bleeding ect;  I love feeling those little flutters of life shifting around inside.  I think I felt my first defined kicked today too.  It felt like just a little pop of popcorn....no other way to really describe it.  I only felt it the once so I'm not sure if I was actually feeling a kick but I guess I'll find out soon enough when the baby starts moving around even more.

I'll be posting my 16 week picture later tonight so feel free to check for an update. 

Bleeding Again

I woke up yesterday to really wet underwear.  My immediate thought was I peed my pants.  I got up ran to the bathroom to discover I had started bleeding again.  Thankfully nothing near as scary as when I was in Louisiana when I had the hemorrhage diagnosed.  But still very disappointing.  Thankfully it only lasted for a few minutes once I was up and moving about and then went down to spotting after that.  By the end of the day the spotting was done as well and just down to some tinged cervical mucus and now nothing as if it never happened.  Which I'm really grateful for. 

I called my midwives to tell them this is my first bleeding episode since November 20th and ask if I need to come in or have anything checked out.  They said it wasn't necessary, since the bleeding wasn't heavy and wasn't accompanied by any cramping or pain there wasn't anything they could do.  I'm really hoping that maybe that was just the last of the hemorrhage being pushed out.  We go in two weeks for our anatomy scan so we will find out then if it is gone.  I just hate bleeding it's so stressful and I completely hate it.  

But I know God has his hands on this little one despite what has been thrown at us.  So I will just continue to Trust in the Lord with all my heart. 

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding Proverbs 3:5

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11