So this morning consisted of calling all my different doctor's offices, having medical releases faxed signed and on there way. I have to say I am excited about the venture but somewhat disappointed at the same time.
I know there is still one month where we could be getting pregnant. I know that with God all things are possible. Now it might be that I've been battling a cold/fever for the past 3 days but I just feel as if the fight has left me. I am so incredibly exhausted and so very ready to just let it be.
I have faith that God is a miracle working God and I also know He promised us children. But I also feel just incredibly exhausted. Exhausted keeping up with my so called "bubbly personality".
A woman I work with on Saturday told me she needs to talk to me that I am not myself and wants to know what is wrong. I didn't have an answer for her. I of course was able to pass it on to my period(pms) but in reality we had found out for another month we were not pregnant and so I had just made this appointment. That didn't even bother me too horribly. I think it's just that I feel so tired of pressing on. I want someone else to do it for me. I want someone else to fight the battle.
I think that's part of the reason I feel relieved about our appointment in February. But I also believe that God's ways are so much higher than our own. It's such a jumbled web of emotions. No set feeling about anything in particular.
But now officially less than a month to go things will work out they always do.
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