Answers...just not what I wanted

So the visit, where to start?
Well turns out my thyroid is back to being too high, it seems I have a fluctuating thyroid. So today I start synthroid then in 6 weeks I will check back with her to make sure my thyroid levels are optimal THEN we can try to begin treatments...whats frustrating though is that I have a endo and went to see her about my levels back in October and when we checked my levels had gone from 5.6 to 2.21(they want you below 2.25 for achieving pregnancy) and currently they are 4.06...so its just a frustrating circumstance.  At 4.06 I am still technically in the normal range for someone who is not trying to get pregnant but there was a study done that showed women with their thyroid levels higher have a higher chance of miscarriage, now the dr was willing to go forward and proceed with treatment plans if I didn't want to do synthroid but she said since 40% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage she doesn't want that to happen and then for us to wonder, well what if and then go back to square one so I agree, as much as I hate the idea of waiting again.  So what we are going to do is synthroid for 6 weeks then check my levels again make sure they are optimal after that then she wants to start me on an aggressive letrozole cycyle(femara-a different pill similar to clomid)she is choosing femara over clomid because of the possibility that I do have pcos. She said my signs are just not consistent across the board.  I had a cyst in my ovaries but not the blood work to back up pcos...so she doesn't want me on metformin since not everything is lining up so when we do finally start the femara process I call on cycle day 1 and go in cycle day 3 for blood work and a vaginal ultrasound to see if I have any cysts from the previous cycle*like i did this past test**if I do then femara will NOT work for that next month so I have to wait another month and try again, if I have another cyst THAT next month we will have to consider different approaches but if I get the go ahead I will take femara cycle days 3-7 AND then take opks from cycle days 10-12 and go in for a surge detection--she said I should get this by cycle day 12 if I am on the femara but then they will do another ultrasound cd 12 and then a trigger shot if I am ready to O to make sure I do actually O....after that she will have me on progesterone shots(one a day) up until the pregnancy hormones seem to be able to maintain themselves.  I start Synthroid today and will continue to take it up until 6 weeks POST Pardom.  Then she will want me to wean myself off of it and see how my body reacts...so I will be on it now- having a baby/nursing.  I'm very emotional right now, doesn't help that I'm currently on my period so already my hormones are out of wack.  So right now I'm not sure how I feel I'm excited to finally be doing something but so, upset/sad and frustrated that I am having to wait yet again for something I was trying to get treated back in October.  And of course struggling with fear of what ifs after this wait we get my thyroid in order only to find that the cysts are consistent so the pills wont work for us.    I know that it will all end up working out.  So for now we plan on the treatments happening(God willing) at the end of May.  So just keep us in your prayers...and for me to really just trust that God knows best and that for TODAY he has decided that I am not going to be starting treatment but that doesn't mean forever.  And I know that by doing this when we do get to start treatment I will be in the most optimal place....doesn't stop the disappointment from creeping in though.