Today has had some very unwelcome developements.  I guess though I have to start at the beginning which would have been late afternoon/early evening yesterday.  I went to the bathroom to discover really thick( and I mean thicker than I have ever seen it) cervical mucous with blood sitting on my panty liner.  I wiped with toilet paper and there was NOTHING.  No pink, no red, nothing at all.  To be safe though I called the midwives since they told me if there is ever even a hint of blood unless immediately after sex to call them.  I talked to the midwife explained the situation she asked if I had any cramping or pain which I did not.  She said really then there wasn't anything to be too concerned about.  That if I wanted to come in Monday to be seen I could or if I want to wait (if it doesn't progress) for my appointment in two weeks that I could.  I decided since there was no actual spotting that I would wait and see what happened with this and then make a decision.

Que today at work:  I began to actual spot.  No bright red blood thankfully and not as heavy as I had with Ezekiel when I was bleeding with him.  It is all light pink but it is almost continuous along with a heavy cervical pressure that comes and goes.  I don't know any other way to describe it.  I also have even MORE cervical mucous build up then I did before all accompanied with the pink/bloody look.  I called the midwives who are going to have me come in Monday for an ultrasound.  We are going to look and make sure that 1-it's not an ectopic pregnancy causing this 2- I don't have another SCH like I had with Ezekiel and 3- just to put my mind at rest.  She asked me if I have been having any cramping which Started early today and has been going off and on but to be honest if I think about it I don't know that its more or less than what I was having before only that I'm paying closer attention due to the fact that I'm bleeding and now watching out for any sign of a miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy. 

So that my friends is my day.  I have to say I'm honestly amazed though.  Through all of this even when I saw that first sign of blood I wasn't freaking out.  I know that God has his hand in this, no matter what happens He brought us this far.  He knows this child by name.  He foresaw this from the very beginning.  I choose to put my hope and faith in Him.  Now this doesn't mean that I still am not running to the bathroom every 5 minutes or analyzing every twinge that takes place.  But I know that God is faithful. 

I will keep you guys posted.  I know you want to know everything! 

I had an extremely vivid dream last night that I just can't seem to get out of my head.  I dreamt that I woke up and went to the bathroom only to find spotting.  I immediately called the Midwives who asked me to come in for an ultrasound so they could make sure everything was okay.  I arrived at the hospital she was taken in immediately to go see the Midwives.  She turned on the ultrasound machine and said well I found the source of your spotting.  Your having twins!  One of the babies is placed closer to your cervix and seems to be kicking you a lot down there hence the spotting.  I was so overjoyed that I took immediately shared the news with everyone I could.  I came up with the cutest way to put it on Facebook and thought myself I wonder how many people have seen it.  It was at this moment that I woke up and has a moment of confusion.  The dream seemed so real I had I remind myself it is too early to tell, at least on my own.  I think in part this dream is simply since I've heard multiple times last week that I was already showing am I sure I'm not having twins.  The answer to that is no I'm not sure yet but I highly doubt it.

I also have begun feeling the slightest feelings if movement every once in a while.  With Ezekiel I remember feeling it every night starting at 12 weeks and being I'm only 8 I have to admit a large part of me believes this may just be gas.  But we will see if these feelings become stronger and more consistent.

Already I feel like time is flying by.  It seems like just a week ago I found out we were pregnant and now I'm over 8 weeks along.  So close to the second trimester!  It's so exciting.

I am amazed at the changes I am already seeing in my body.  I'm only a few days past 7 weeks and look like I looked with Ezekiel a few months in!  It just amazes me.  Here I am sucking in my stomach as much as I possibly can:

I look in the mirror constantly and have to do a double take.  I'm not going to lie I love it!  I like the fact I jumped from the bloated just feeling fat stage to looking actively pregnant.  Although that really does depend on what clothes I'm wearing.  I'm getting more energy, pretty much no morning sickness so overall things are going really well. 

It's Official

Well It is official!  I am most certainly pregnant.  The Dr appointment yesterday went really well.  I am estimated at 6 weeks 7 days today(so a few days off from what we thought) and due around the end of October.  She went to do my exam and said you are most certainly pregnant.  Just hearing those words made my heart leap for joy!  I am beyond excited to have it confirmed.  Though we knew it it's still pretty amazing.  We won't have any ultrasounds or anything like that on a regular basis unless there is some type of medical reason too since I declined the anatomy scan.  So we will have one at 20 weeks otherwise we will just listen to the heartbeat every appointment.  To be quite honest I'm actually 100% okay with that.  So many people would want the extra ultrasounds even pay for them and I completely understand but being that already this pregnancy is seeming so much more normal then it was with Ezekiel (aka no bleeding, or spotting) I want to be treated "normal".

Well I promised I'd post so there you are.  We will be having another little munchkin by the end of the year. 

A noticeable bump

I've talked a little bit in the past on how I was on a journey not only to get pregnant but also in the last year to get healthy, fit and try to loose as much weight as possible.  Below the first picture is a picture of me in March of 216 Followed by a picture of me just last month at the beginning of February.

So why on earth am I showing you this?  Well because that picture right there above this text I took just a couple weeks ago.  I have since lost even a few more inches of fat and toned up even more.  This morning I weighed myself(exactly the same as a few weeks ago since I found out I was pregnant)  Just one notable difference:

Baby has deemed that I should have a baby bump early.  I had to laugh when I put on my gym clothes this morning and saw that I had a very noticeable bloat bump(cause let us be real it is definitely not a baby right now).  But It really is interesting to me that I have gained absolutely nothing yet there is an obvious change in my body.  And no readers I will assure you I was most certainly not sticking it out on purpose.  I always heard you started showing earlier the more kids you have I just didn't think that at 7 weeks(technically 7 weeks tomorrow) I would have a very round front.  I know anyone looking at me would think its just flab that has to go but it makes me smile.  Soon that flab will be moving with the kicks and turns of a little boy or girl.

I really am leaning towards not finding out the sex and letting it be a surprise.  I am loving the idea more and more as the days go on.  Of course you can not fault me if I change my mind in the future.  Well that's really all for now just thought it was worth the share. 

Getting Real

In just a few days I will be heading to the Drs office for our first appointment!  I'm so incredibly excited.  It's becoming real to me.  Today I plan to go to the craft store pick out some yarn and begin a gender neutral baby blanket.  I made one for Ezekiel and every child we have I plan on making them their very own.  The more I think about it the more I really feel like I will be waiting and not find out the gender so I want to pick something that really can fit either a girl or a boy...so probably yellows greens ect; 

Overall I feel good.  I get waves of nausea and exhaustion but overall I feel good.  I found if I push past and exercise I get a little burst of energy which is nice.  I'm trying to stick with that as much as I can. 

I'll definitely post on Friday after my appointment. 

In One Week

In just one week I will have my first appointment with the midwives.  I came to the realization yesterday that I have absolutely no idea what to expect.  In the past I was given special treatment so to speak since I was with the fertility specialists but this time I have no idea.  Will I get an ultrasound?  Will I get to hear the heartbeat?  Last time with Ezekiel due to all the complications with the hemorrhage by 8 weeks I had already had 9 ultrasounds I believe it was.  I decided to call and find out.  If there really isn't anything going on is it worth Isaac and Ezekiel coming for an hour.  I found out that there is not an ultrasound.  They explained they plan on doing that at the second visit since they don't have vaginal ultrasound machines and at 7 weeks that is normally too early to see anything.  They offered to write me a script to get one done early but I would have to pay out of pocket for it.    I told them that is okay since I  now realized that this is the norm.  She told me they have a bedside ultrasound machine so that she will gladly try to see something but that at only 7 weeks I can't expect anything to happen or be seen.  It's worth trying I suppose we will see how I feel the day of.

I'm not really having any pregnancy symptoms so to speak beyond getting very tired.  But nothing a nap or some coffee can't help with.  Overall things are seeming good I'm excited for next week.  That is about all I have left to post on.